Money

01272011

What a slipper fucking slope.

I am a SINC (Single income, no Children) so understand that I have learned a lot about how to live well by spending money. I am not a saver. I am comforted by the notion that I can always earn more. That I could be dead tomorrow. Knowing this there is a lot I do not understand (like saving for my kids and not for myself). Maybe someday this will change but for now I will talk about money in the way I see how it effects all walks of life.

• You can make money.
• You can steal money.
• You can be born with money.
• You can win money.

Ask yourself, what is it for. Why do you want it? Where you spend it and why. What is your reasoning. Don't walking to life not understanding this. Don't have the mindset that more is the only answer. You will die alone if your that stupid.

As a young guy I was making $40/hour at night doing computer work for a book publishing company. I was good at what I was doing, I was efficient. I didn't do my homework because I was making money. I was more interested in the work then I was was in the idea of being taught how to do all this other stuff (Math, English, science so on). I was lucky but with it came a harsh learning curve, of which is still bending today.

I didn't goto collage. I worked. I worked hard. I knew someday I would hit a ceiling in my field due to the lack of a degree but I was owing well enough to ignore this. What I didn't know when I was working and not going to collage that in collage you are in an environment where ideas and be fostered an grown. Worked out with the best and brightest, unjadded youths. This I missed out on but with it came an early understand that you can have all that you want in the physical world and still be unhappy. I have had the cars, the Girls, the bikes, the apartments, the boats, the homes, the motorcycles. All of this I had because of my work, my money. When in collage you usually learn this later in life (mid life crisis) but I started to feel the effects of this life in my late 20s and it scared and scares the living shit out of me.

I am left with the underlying notion that I am not going what I was meant to be doing. That I am not living the life I should, That I am missing the boat. That I will never know what my true reason is. It would be nice if there was a plan. In a socialist world, the plan is forced apron you and yours and it can't be half bad. YOu life, you have less stress and don't think about all else you could be doing. It is the guy that grew up wanting to be a pilot, learning to be a pilot, being a pilot and retiring as a pilot. What happens when you can do more then just one thing. What happens if your in a Capitalistic, free society where you can do anything you want. I can tell you that you start to think about the whys. Money lands you right here. The challenge of needing more has gone from your life and your left to question whats next. Maybe you buy more to stay challenged. Maybe you have kids. Maybe you buy a bigger house. A better car. THEN WHAT!

How fucking empty it is once you land yourself here. If you think your better then everyone else because you have a lot of money then your a fool, lost in your own little competitive world. Lost to the world. LOST.

Wake up, money can get you a lot but it is not the only thing. If you or someone you know knows nothing more then money then you should feel sad for them, try to open their eyes. Those that are consumed with cash are shallow, unthinking, un creative people that do not deserve what they have gained. They gained it with the thought that it would make them happy, get them the girl and the toys and the lifestyle but what then. Ever heard of Guggenheim? MacArthur, Gates, Betty? All people that gain much and found that it is better spent on the whole then on the self. While the greed they had got them to this place, they found that it is not all about them. Think about this when you are getting greedy, selfish, lost. Trump? A self consumed person that is so insecure with himself that the money he has made is the only thing that validates him. The same can be said of those that are bon into money. They are competitive souls that take the competition and make it their life . Competition is a joke. I can drive a person but think about the goal. You are doing to win. What then? Compete more? it is a big fat circle. You wake up one day tired, with a lot of money and nothing good to do with it.

You can be dead at any point. Live in the now. Remember karma. Do well for you and yours but remember al the others. If your reading this your on the Net, on a computer, part of the modern world. You are lucky when more then %80 of mankind are not. Remember this when your selfishness starts to take over.